這幾天心情很不好 , 很報歉我完全沒有心情上網寫日記 , 我想了很久要用什麼樣的詩句什麼樣的形容詞才能表達我心中的痛苦 , 和我對朋友的思念 !
這是我第一次失去了一個好朋友 , 17 年前我第一次踏入當年的 ( S B C ) 化妝間 , 那時我只是一個小小的 ( 咖哩啡 ) 冷冷的化妝間無人理採 , 坐在那理整整半個鐘頭才隱約聽到一位小姐叫著另一位同事說 : 啊~~~那個誰 ! 幫坐在那裡的那個 ( 咖哩啡 ) 隨便化一下 ! 走過來的那個人他的名字就叫 ( FREDDY ) ! 一個陽光般的少年 親切和藹的笑容 , 他細心的幫我化上了我生平第一個 ( 電視台妝 ) , 結果他被罵到臭頭 ! 因為 ( 咖哩啡 ) 是不需要被尊重被禮遇的 , 最後他輕聲的在耳邊告訴我 : 妹妹在這行妳要做 , 就一定要紅 ! 如果永遠只做個 ( 咖哩啡 ) 不會有人尊重妳 , 人家也不會把妳放在眼裡 , 不如去做個賣雞飯 鴉飯的都還比這個更好 ! 這是我跟他的第一次的相遇 , 至此之後因為他我認識了 ADDY 我们三個人從此成了莫逆之交 , 一轉眼就 17 年 !!!
這 17 年裡有太多的點點滴滴 , 我無法用言語來形容 ! 他不只是我的朋友他是我的家人 ! 我萬萬也想不到我們的情份那麼短暫 ! 我看著他躺在病床上漸漸的憔悴 , 親眼看著他拔掉仰賴生存的儀器！一個鐘頭後他就這樣走了 ~~~~~~~~~!
我最大的震撼是當我看到他的靈堂時 , 我身體不經的顫抖眼淚擦不乾揮不去 , 模糊的雙眼看著他依舊笑容燦爛的遺照 , 冰冷冷的棺墓 , 教我最不捨 , 最不甘願 , 最殘忍的是 , 朋友相見怎麼這一次是我拿香拜你 !!! 縱使我知道我們人早晚都會離開這世上 , 但是我真的從來都沒想到你會這麼年輕就離開 ! ~~~~~~~~~千言萬語文字無法形容~~~~~~~
( 姥姥 ) 我年輕的歲月與記憶裡有你的陪伴 ! 未來的日子裡你永遠都在我心裡 , 下輩子我們還要再做一次朋友 ! 我們一定會再相見 !!!!
October 4th, 2007 at 10:48 pm
放心，他将与佛同在！
October 4th, 2007 at 11:13 pm
很伤感。。。
你不要太伤心 ok 。。。
这启发我要珍惜眼前人。。
October 4th, 2007 at 11:31 pm
YiFong Jie, I understand ur feeling now cos I went thru that b4, somemore it was my beloving grandma who passed away. Although it happened many yrs ago, but when I think now, I will still
October 5th, 2007 at 12:05 am
那晚半夜2点我去见他最后一面。正流泪时，他的家人安慰我他来世或许会当一个漂亮的印度女郎。走时我告诉他`我们下辈子再一起玩`。。。我，应该会是他身边的牛，而你。。或许会是卖摈榔的印度西施吧？
October 5th, 2007 at 12:40 am
Cheer up Yi Feng! Stay Strong! Freddy will bless you no matters how far away he is.
Time to move on and embrace a new beginning!
When god closes one door, he will open another door for you.
October 5th, 2007 at 4:42 am
节哀顺便。
开开心心的，勇敢地面对生活，把自己的事业搞好算是给他最大的安慰把。
加油~不要太难过了
October 5th, 2007 at 9:19 am
节哀
October 5th, 2007 at 10:47 am
权大妈，节哀。
人往往逃不过一死；差别只使谁先走一步。
如果，您坚信你来生还会与freddy相见， 那么这只是暂时的分离。
October 5th, 2007 at 10:51 am
你要加油。
October 5th, 2007 at 11:06 am
别太难过了！他已经解脱了
October 5th, 2007 at 12:25 pm
走，走下去，走他要你走的路。。
留下他所给你带来的一切，延续下去，
因为. 他不想把这一切也带走。。
October 5th, 2007 at 1:36 pm
October 5th, 2007 at 4:26 pm
一直以来很欣赏你 看到你真情流露 - 感动到我在这儿留言..好好珍惜`爱惜身边的每一个人.. -在当任何人走的时候.. 因知道自己已给了他/她人生中我们最好的一切 (付出的感情,时间,支持等), 让我们回忆起来时, 只有欣慰, 没有遗憾…那我们就不会这么难受了.. 共勉
October 5th, 2007 at 5:21 pm
也许这对他来说算是一种解脱吧!
October 5th, 2007 at 10:02 pm
不要太难过，时间可以治疗伤痛。再过一段日子，你就比较不会这么伤心了。
October 6th, 2007 at 1:01 am
thank you for being there and giving so much support to my cousin’s family these period of time. really appreciate it. its such a lose to lose him but we have to move on in life. i believe that he does not want to see us to be so upset. take care.
October 6th, 2007 at 1:28 am
nothing is eternal, It’s part of life, be thankful for the happy moments that u all hv shared, don’t be too upset.
October 6th, 2007 at 7:56 am
人生最大的痛苦，莫过于挚爱的离开。你也别太伤心了，今日你们只不过是短暂分离，他日定会再相聚，他会永远活在你的心中。
October 6th, 2007 at 12:37 pm
一切都是注定的，看开点。继续为未来冲刺！加油！
http://media-ratings.blogspot.com
October 6th, 2007 at 2:40 pm
要你不难过，是很难的事。
但是，你要记得，他虽然不在了，但是他会永远活在你的心里。至少在他的一生里，还有人会一直记得他。
October 6th, 2007 at 5:04 pm
碧珠離開時，網友貼了以下的片段來安慰我。
去看看吧，會流很多眼淚。。但之后就會好受一點了。
http://koshiyen.twbbs.org/~ifplab/dl/walktourC.swf
October 6th, 2007 at 5:47 pm
No matter how glorious something is. No matter how sinister something is.
They will never escape the grasp of impermanence.
It is hard to accept this when adversity strikes. One day, you would.
My Dad passed away two years back and I was 14. It was difficult but be strong.
I live by this principle, “Smile or frown, it’s still a day.” Instead of frowning, just smile. You will find that the day will pass much easily and people around you will feel much better too.
For those who have passed on, their Karma guides them. For those who still live, WE can guide them. Your friend or rather, soul mate will not suffer for he has been such a nice human being. Don’t worry for him, he probably departed for the realm of the Deva or even, better.
It is alright if you find my view immature. After all, I’m only a sixteen year-old so I guess I lack exposure to the world.
May the Triple Jewels, the Buddha, Dharma and Sangha be with you.
May the Bodhisattvas help you through this ordeal.
Namo Amitabha. Namo Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva.
October 7th, 2007 at 11:15 pm
真是难过这样好的朋友就这样走了。
希望姐，你能够在最短的时间好起来， 灰复你那灿烂的笑容。
October 8th, 2007 at 2:43 am
权大妈，
很遺憾你的這位好朋友就這樣走了!
我知道再多的安慰也彌補不了你心中的痛!
不過我想,在他這一生中有你門這些知己陪伴他走完人生最後的一段路我想他已死而無憾了!
我常在想為甚麼”老天爺”總愛帶走熱愛生命的人,到底天有沒有眼, 又或者”老天爺”是個兴灾樂禍的”人”, 一直再上面玩弄這他們所製造的人類!
很慚愧,我不是個熱愛生命的人,可能很多人認為我不都的珍惜但又有誰能了解我真正的感受呢!
每每當我看到”有用的人或對社會有貢獻的人又或是熱愛生命的人”我就會想為甚麼不把我帶走而帶走他們
权大妈，加油喔!不過, 難過一下下就好喔!
是真的,人生得一知己以死而無憾了何況我想他應該有很多! 加油!!!
October 8th, 2007 at 8:46 am
节哀顺便。
If he is around, he will not want his friends to be so sad about his passing. Death is not painful, it’s the suffering that is.
October 8th, 2007 at 9:31 pm
This is the cycle of life like any living things on earth. I know it is kind of hard to let go but then it is for the good of the dead. I tell my children not to grief for me if I die as grief will make it hard for me to leave this land without regret. Even if we are dead, our soul will be able to feel for the living around us.
Everyone will come to this day, let go and move on with your life.
Bless you with good fortune!
October 9th, 2007 at 4:22 am
很痛的。。
看到自已的好友离开。。
很不舍。。
一路好走、、、
October 9th, 2007 at 9:14 am
路口与他相遇，不管在哪里情节，你的故事里，有了他的存在。生死对人是个考验吧，但离开的人不想看到活的人一直为他留恋什么，相信他要看到的是开心的你，开心在每一天吧！~ ~ ~ 为活着，离开的人，快乐一生！
October 9th, 2007 at 12:29 pm
October 9th, 2007 at 3:35 pm
yi feng jie!i can understand u feeling,because my younger brother (26yrs only) also leaving us .when he leaving,i bussiness on Thailand,i can not see him last ….very sad..then just can cry: in hotel after back from work! last year ,i hv two cousin also leaving me so ….life is like that…must ‘惜福‘now what we have..
October 9th, 2007 at 3:38 pm
yi feng jie!i can understand u feeling,because my younger brother (26yrs only) also leaving us .when he leaving,i bussiness on Thailand,i can not see him last ….very sad..then just can cry: in hotel after back from work! last year ,i hv two cousin also leaving me so ….life is like that…must ‘惜福‘now what we have..
October 9th, 2007 at 3:39 pm
yi feng jie! gambate o!! don think too much!wishing u:have a nice days!’
October 9th, 2007 at 6:17 pm
uncle freddy 是个很好的人，他永远活在我们的记忆中
October 15th, 2007 at 2:36 pm
Miss Yi Feng,
that discovered Mr. Freddy has passed away, when my friend married he was her make up artise and we have great time chat with him. His is so friendly and really enjoyed the only day with him.
This is first time I read your blog, and so shock and sad
I feel so sad and my tears almost dropping when reading your blog.
Hope you would overcome from his leaving soonest.
October 24th, 2007 at 11:26 pm
Yifeng jie, I finally decided to comment on your page after so long. I just had taken such a long time to grief over Uncle Freddy.
Thanks for being there, everyday, and without fail.
You are kind, generous, and giving.
Thank you for all your, and Mark Lee’s help.
And for all those words you said also.
After I read the post. I cannot help but drop tears, thinking about him.
I hope you do see this, and you will mail me really soon.
Love, kelly.
November 7th, 2007 at 10:42 pm
The reason why he’s been nice to me was because we both used to worked for SIA as a flying crew although we weren’t the same batch, in fact he got in much earlier than me. He worked in SBC as a makeup artist whereas i used to work as a part-time (Kajang pu tei ) actress for a short period and i told him about my bad experiences wif the people. He just laughed and told me i’d made a correct choice to leave because he left the company too.
He was a very friendly and open person and it’s sad to see him go, but knowing Freddy, he would not want to see his friends feel sad.
Miss U freddy!
Ally